Silent reflection

For all of you guys that have been wondering where ive been
Well-ive been here just didnt have much to say
I was and maybe still am going through a period of silent uncertainities
Im sure you can all think back to some time or other where you havent had much to say
Where sitting in silence is a comfort in itself
Especially when uncertainties arise and you have no idea what to even start writing
Not that you dont have much to write believe me i always do
But rather where if you wrote it would be such different things hourly let alone daily that you would definitely be put away for multiple personalities disorder or something at least like it
So for now im silent and awaiting for the inspiration to write that comes from deep refection

Wow-my first ever "real" as predetermined by others-real blog

Travel all over the world

Over the past year I’ve travelled all over the world
To the German city line and the apple wine
To the Malaysian peacefulness and bean pancakes
To the Czech channels and old buildings

I've travelled to the adorable town of Birmingham-Alabama
To the deserted Island of Fiji
To the land of spices and Bollywood
To Zambia, the land enriched by its people

I've travelled and experienced the French sense of humour
To the communal villages of Indonesia
To the exotic and encapsulating cities of Brazil
To the cultured and rich lands of Ethiopia and Eritrea

I've travelled and been enchanted by Singapore
Experienced the depth that Chili offers
To the passion and energy of Mexico
To the heartiest felt laughter of Botswana

I may have not even packed my bags
Or gotton on a plane
I didn't need to for very far
-to travel all over the world
For each friend you meet takes you to meet their country
Within a short encounter

It was just a friendship

It was just a friendship after all
Thats the echo that I hear now when i hear your voice
Nothing more, nothing less
Yes, I suppose its was if you choose to
ignore the connection that occurred

I felt you enter my mind questioning
me on the very reason that air is invisible
I felt you enter my abilities enabling
me to have all capabilities
I felt you enter my heart ever so
silent that the footsteps were soundless
I felt you enter me ever so deep
that the ocean doesn't compare

I remember that day is sat next to you
You were speaking but i barely heard you
I sat there content in the moment,
content just sitting next to you

It didn't happen, or did it
No connection - just a reawaking of the possibilities that lies in other oceans
It was just a friendship
Nothing more, nothing less

Goodbye

I mentally seem to be doing it
Saying goodbye to each thing that has been a part of my life for the past year
Hoping that with each passing day -
that not goodbyes will be needed when the time comes

Waking up on my bed to the sound of the birds making a noise outside my window
Having the light peaking through my blinds
Eating cereal out of my big white bowl
Driving to uni and dragging myself around campus
Watching the fountain of knowledge sprinkle its wisdom into the sharks lake

Returning home to the sight of dishes in the sink
To the television that turns our house into a home
To the sounds of our washing machine walking about and the ghost's whispers
Up the stairs to my inviting room
Breathing the night air on my balcony
Awaiting the next visit from my possum and koala friends
Closing my eyes knowing that I’ll wake up another day in the same bed

For now maybe-but goodbye awaits tomorrow...

Golden Paradise

When i first saw you i was glorified in your beauty
Mesmerized by what i saw
It took me so long to get to you
but looking back the memory is sweet

Where does your beauty lie
Its in your oceans-ever blue!!!
Its in the paradise that you remain in-day and night
By day you are one and by night another

The skyscrapers-or let me just say it Q1
To the channels that makes island of land
The bridges that connects these islands
The boats parked on the channel instead of the cars parked outside the houses

The Marina filled with boats that sail the oceans and channels
The house shaped boasts and the church boat
By night i glanced at you against the moon light

I will miss all that you are for you are paradise in your own right-
the Golden Gold Coast Paradise

Sorry? - Exactly!!

Can't believe we sat next to each other for hours untill we finally spoke
So strange that after 5 minutes we were already old friends
How often does that happen
Laptop to Laptop, no work was done after that

Walking down that walkway
With the waves crashing around us
In the darkness, that cloudy night

For months we sailed from ocean to ocean
Each time in the darkness of the night
With each night came new adventures
of the vessels in our lives

You listen to me each time
And always made me see the lighter side of it all
How you did that i don't know
Its rare to find a friend like you
Hope they make many more in the ocean of Chennai

My paper

Why is it that its easier to sit hear and
write about things not worthwhile then to write you
I remember when I first heard about you
I had you all planned out
I was excited and eager to start

'Can’t wait to start"
"I will write you early"
These words were the words that I heard myself say
Now I’m not saying much as you sit there waiting for me

Blame it on procrastination
Probably the best word ever invented
Invented by someone who too was running away from something

I'm writing about my passion
So why aren't I passionately writing
Tell me paper, come to life
Shout at me and tell me to write you
Tell me that time doesn't stand still
Tell me of how great the feeling will be once I’ve written you

Paper Oh paper, I will return to thee!!

Numb

I'm numb, I’m numbed by the silence i received
Of the come on "theres things that are more important
than what you are going through"

What is it that bugs you so but that you won't say
Is it the family that doesn't understand their value to you
Is it the feeling of the emptiness that is filled in this city

Tell me for how else will I know
How else will I find out why your heart isn’t beating like it always does
Where your passion has gone
For I can't recognize you
Disguised in that same laugh that i know

I long for those deep talks about shallow water that we would have
Those days of cooking and adding more spices with each taste
Those days of deciding that we're undecided
I'm starting to forget but it wasn't that long ago
I'm scared to leave with the emptiness feeling lingering in the air
Don't let me leave this way...

Your way

I question myself
What is it that you want
I know you want more of me than i may want for myself at times

You demand me to breath the way that you think is right
-the way that you do
I don't know how..

I just always feel like its never good enough anyway
I don't know how to deal with the disappointment ..in your eyes and in your being

I have my weaknesses and my vulnerabilities
Different as they are to yours
-they still command their own existence

I cannot be who you want me to be-all i can be is me
Expectations set-appear to be broken
That is what often tends to occur

I came and found you beautiful
-and dealing with things in your own way
Although i didn't always understand
I always let you be for you understood

I come to you bare as i am now
-dealing with things my way
I ask you to shut your eyes and your heart
if you choose to not understand my way
and to not try and impose your way on me

Collusion of two atoms

Each life is like a mere atom which may bump into another atom
As they collide they are engulfed in the energy and enlightenment of each other
The thought of separation is but a foreign concept

When friction occurs the atoms are faced with the reality of movement
The knowledge that one may have to go
That a path of uncertainly awaits

It is the belief that a force can keep them together that sustains their suspension
The value of being together that outweighs any other treasure

Believing and having faith
Faith that surpasses all and that is enough
Faith that allows you not to be moved
Faith in the knowledge that whatever path you take may always lead you back to that same atom

Nothingness

I remember-barely but I remember
The emptiness and the entrapment

You opened my door of knowledge
You encouraged me to think beyond what I always thought

You encouraged me to question
You encouraged me to see other sides
You were a pleasant surprise

We built a mental friendship
One in which we could gain knowledge from each other

Nothing kept us together
And nothing is all that it amounted to
What can we call it for it has no name
Why do I still look for a name

My illusion that there was something more causes me to package you in the way that I want
It is your words that bring me back to reality
The nothiness that you say that illuminates the emptiness

Reality of Dreams

I have learnt about faith, patience and sacrifice
I have learnt that is not only learnt but practiced
That it is not only in dreams and movies but also in reality

It is these dreams that I now wish to step out off
The illusions and the made up world
The happily ever after and the edited scripts

Maybe I still have more lessons to learn before I am ready
No matter how ready you feel-you never really are till the moment
The moment you face on the reality of it

Where is he - the beloved that is worthy of my love and my faith
That will bask me in the sunshine of his love
That will ask of me the sacrifice that I would willingly give

Maybe I'm not meant to make the sacrifice
Maybe the sacrifice is his to make
His dreams that he needs to step out of to meet the reality of me
Untill then I continue learning and living in the reality of my dreams

xxx

Connection of two souls

15/07/06

What is it that attracts one soul to another?
Is it the impact that one has on the other or rather an unspoken connection?
I think that at times we may be drawn to a person and not fully comprehend why
That is how i connected with the beloved
Once our beings started to communicate a silent confirmation occurred of the things that need not always be understood but rather lived

Such a strange effect is often hard to read and can easily be misunderstood
Our hearts and our minds are quick to jump to conclusions when such a connection occurs between a man and a women
It encloses the connection and places a mask before ones eyes
A musk that gives an appearance of alternative possibilities
Possibilities that have become a norm in our eyes

These possibilities cause us to stray from the path that is silent and unknown
The path only our souls can understand and that our hearts and mind cannot fully acknowledge
The path taken is guided by our souls and emulated by our minds
The responsibility then lies in the mind to be the barrier of the connection that has occurred between two souls
It is the mind's actions that enable the souls to be enlightened

Destiny

The most important thing is to succeeded in discovering your destiny. Destiny is what you have always wanted to accomplish. Everyone, when they are young, knows what their destiny is. At that point in their lives, everything is clear and everything is possible.

They are not afraid to dream, and to yearn for everything they would like to see happen to them in their lives. But, as time passes, a mysterious force begins to convince them that it will be impossible for them to realize their destiny. Its a force that appears to be negative, but actually shows you how to realize your destiny.

It prepares your spirit and your will, because there is one greater truth on this planet: Whoever you are, or whatever it is that you do, when you really want something, its because that desire originated in the soul of the universe.

Its your mission on earth. The soul of the world is nourished by people's happiness. And also by unhappiness, envy, and jealousy. To realize one's destiny is a person's real obligation. All things are one. And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping to achieve it.
Paulo Coehlo